My thoughts on college, getting a typical 9 to 5 job and all that fun stuff based on something I realized today. I doubt anyone will really watch this, but…ya. Also yes, one of my eyes are smaller than the other and my eyebrows are bushy. Thank you for noticing.

Okay, let’s get one thing straight. I can’t stand AA music. It’s generic, every song on an album sounds pretty much the same and a lot of their lyrics are just as bad as mainstream rap artists. A lot of the fans bug me too because they think AA are so “br00tal” or technical. There are so many more hardcore and metal bands that can smash a heck of a lot better than they can and the music is ton’s more complicated. I hate the fact that they got big playing extremely generic music when there are so many other better bands who deserve it and who’s albums don’t sound the same. However, upon hearing this new song I have hope for them, though it may be faint, it is there. This new song “Run Free” is average in terms of overall unbiased opinion reflecting their instrumentation, typical song structure of verse-chorus-verse-chorus-breakdown, but by AA terms, this new song beats all of their older work (in my opinion). The lyrics for the song aren’t bad, but they sound like some really cheesy lyrics a 80’s hair metal band would use for one of their ballads.  Not a single one of their past albums could get me to listen to more than two songs in one go without getting overtly bored and/or frustrated. As much as it bugs me to say this, I have hope for this new album that it’ll change my opinion of them from crappy,generic,same song structure in every song, scene kid band to something worth putting on my itunes.

Is it weird that I spend a lot of time out of my day to think about all the things that’ll happen in the next 25 years or so??? The friends I’ll have made, friends I’ll lose, the possibility of dealing with my parents death, maybe even my death. Looking back at all the things I’ve done, the things I’ll regret. All the sad stories I’ll have to tell, all the experience I would’ve gained. Will I have a stable job??? Will I have a house???Will I be married and have kids??? Will my wife die before I do??? Will I ever have to face the day where I have to see one of my children die before I do??? How many more babies will have been born into my family??? Who will my family lose next??? Will I have figured out what it is I’m supposed to do in my life??? What kinda woman will I marry??? Will I ever have to stand there and watch as they put the coffin of one of my best-friend’s in the ground??? Will my best friends ever have to do that for me??? Will my fragile little heart be able to take the pain of giving a speech while I stand by my fathers coffin??? What about my brothers??? Was I good role model to them??? Were they proud of what their big brother has done with his life, or will they be disappointed and tune me out, as if me and the mistakes I had made didn’t exist??? How many times will I have cried within that time??? How many people will I have made smile??? Will I be able to have a day where I can honestly say I’m okay???