Literally two months ago, their videos of them live went from one MAYBE two people only screaming “God I’m so sick of this place” because they didn’t know any lyrics to any other songs, now look at this. A year from now, they’re likely to be more popular than bands like Hundredth and Counterparts.
Today was a rollercoaster of a day. Woke up early for nothing, had a relapse with my depression, suicide became a valid option in my mind again, I downloaded some new music to try and cheer me up, I only got worse throughout the day, figured out that the girl/bestfriend I’ve liked for forever now and myself are drifting apart(which sucks), had an emotional moment with my baby brother, Being As An Ocean’s music brought my spirits way up, I’m even happier than I was before this all started and I am currently stuffed with cookies and milk and jamming some soothing Post-rock music…..life is gooood.
I don’t get mad about my “friends” not wanting to hang out with me. I get mad when they feel that they need to lie or ignore me if they don’t want to do so. If someone says “No I’d rather do something else that day” or “No, I’d rather just go home today” I’m PERFECTLY okay with that. I’d rather someone tell me the truth like that than ignore/lie to me about it. If there’s one thing I hate it’s being betrayed and lieing is the most hurtful form of that. I’m now finding out the people I once considered close friends are selfish, immature and self-centered.
Being As An Ocean- This Loneliness Won’t be the Death of Me
” I still feel so alone Even when I’m surrounded by my best friends Word’s can’t penetrate A tree in the wind I bend Falling faster into the depths I’m falling, I’m falling Under such depression, I can barely even catch my breath Words can’t mend and love does not sink in Why can’t I see Your face?”
It kinda sucks loving a girl as much as you love a best friend, and even going to the extent of caring for her as one. Yet, she doesn’t even care for you or see you as a friend or anything for that matter. But hey, getting to know this girl and be around her is something I will never ever regret. If only she knew how special she really was.
Okay, how many of my followers actually want to be “friends.” That means we start by messaging eachother, talk more, get to know how weird the other person is, work our way up to talking on the phone than one day, somehow meet in person. No one??? So this is almost like facebook, except no one gives me shiz for complaining??? Okay, that’s cool I have a an empty bed to accompany me either way.